I am a small fan of these 3 amazing actors. I have seen a lot of korean movies, series and some variety shows in my 28 years of life but I only have 3 Korean actors that I love the most.

I can't call myself a "Die hard fan"  cause I can't afford that (buying stuffs with their faces on it, watching their concerts and fan meeting tours etc). I don't have an easy life to be updated about their doings and what's happening in their lives. I don't deserve to be their fan actually because theres nothing I can do for them. 

They're just like a star , a literally Stars ★★★ that I keep on watching from a distance. 

But quarantine has come, first time in the history that you stayed at home straight for almost a half a year now.
You got all the time in the world "me time". 

This situation is giving you a lot of time to look back on the things you've done, things you shouldn't done and the things you could've done but you didn't-- Its making you think what will happen next, no work no pay, campanies are permanently closing etc. It gives you all kinds of worry in this world you couldn't imagine that is existing. Coronavirus is a serious health issue that could add up mental and emotional issues. You have to do something for the situation don't affect your emotional and mental health too much.

Two weeks after the quaratine started I've decided to do a catch up to my 2 Korean loves, but then I feel like it will only make me love them even more and that is something I'm trying to avoid. 

I dont want to miss them alot, adore them even more. Believe me or not, I've only seen 1 series of my first korean Love and I only know 1 song of him and I only watch 2 series of my second korean love--but I adore them so much already what more if I continue watching their movies and series?  Oh my Heart!!

So I've decided to watch other series instead. I'm not a fan of pure romance love story or so much drama, Iam more like suspense, horror action, spy, and comedy series. Thats when I saw my third love after 10 years of being loyal to my 2 korean loves. 

After watching that series, something has changed. I've come to my senses that no one actually told me that I can't be a fan. That I don't derserve to be a fan. It's only in my head. 

Being fan is not actually about making your idol happy or doing something for your idol. It is actually about you, you do something that makes you happy. You are not expecting anything in return (personally and literally) What you are expecting is in General, for them to continue doing their work, for them to be the best of them as always. You wish that they always in good shape physically , mentally and emotionally. ♥♥

So at this age of mine I've decided to make my heart happy. I created an IG fan account for Kim Nam-gil, Jung Il-woo and So Ji-sub ♡♡♡
 namgil.jisub.ilwoo143 posting pictures of them, scenes from their series etc.

They might not be aware of it, but atleast I'm giving myself A chance to be happy and enjoy being their small fan.♥

So someday, I won't regret not doing it :)

Original post of mine at blogger.com