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I have been saved!

I want to share to all of you my story of faith, of God's mysterious way to tell us that He loves us.


I have been lost in the dark for a couple of years. Bullied & betrayed by people whom I cared and cherish the most. I attempted to end my life a lot of times. There were little voices in my head. It seems like all the tragic events that have occured in my past have been haunting me every night. I've been having nightmares for years that I couldn't ran away from. I keep chasing people who have hurt me.  Everything has been eating me up. I couldn't sleep until it's 4 am. I lost my interest in all of my hobbies. I was trying to heal alot of times but whenever I feel better something terrible would happen and I'll be broken to pieces again. 2019 was a rough year for me, I lost some of my friends who was once very dear to me, my only pet and bestfriend went to heaven. My father got sick. We spent months on the hospital and I started to feel numb. I've thought, "Maybe everything will be fine by 2020.", And I never expected that 2020 will hit me worst than all. It was New Year noon when my father went into a comma and his heartbeat keeps on dropping until it was on the 3rd of January when He left this world. I couldn't react. I couldn't cry either. I stopped going to school since I couldn't so well. I feel like a dead person but breathing. A month passed and my childhood friend also went his way to heaven. Then several months passed, it was my (3) aunt and then my grandma. I was so tired of life. They're all God's faithful children but why did He take away their lives? I questioned His existence and almost lost my faith in Him. I couldn't cry and breathe. I wished I could have donated my life. I started to care less about everyone. I isolated myself from my friends & from people. But then one night, I fell asleep and I saw all my loved ones who passed away and telling me they're happy now and they're in a safer place. They hugged and kissed me and I saw Him standing with them. Maybe this is God's way of telling me to do not doubt Him in any ways because no matter where we are in this world, His love for us will never cease. I shared this part of my story to you, so if ever you might be struggling right now, come to Him and remember that the paradise awaits behind all these obstacles along the path. We should believe in His plan cause God knows what's best for us. I thanked Him in my dream and starting that day, I continuously talk to Him again. I never knew that talking to Him would make me feel better and somehow I have forgotten those times I was depressed. I feel genuinely happy. I still feel anxious and sad but remember that God is there to listen. He will heal us and our broken hearts. It might take time but always believe in Him. No matter where we go, or what we do, hold on to Him. All your sorrows and struggles will fade, all the thunders and storms will calm, all the chaos and wars will cease. Because in Him, we will be saved.

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2 Comments
  • Dave Wenceslao
    Nov 05, 2020 10:34
    AMEN <3
  • Ivic_19
    Nov 04, 2020 09:40
    Thank you for sharing. I feel you, cause me too I also face struggle which lead me to depression. And just like you, God is the one who saves me. Bless you more