We all have these kind of days na we feel so high and proud and there are those types of days that you wanna end everything 'cause you think everything sucks. Well, I'm kinda experiencing those bad days from the very beginning of this year. I don't know why. I feel so unmotivated. More like, dead inside. I know I need people to talk to, but all I did was to push them away when they want to help and approach me. I feel bad. My friends are kinda mad at me. They are all saying that if they were in my situation, I would do anything for them to make them feel better but when I feel like shit, I don't want to be treated that way. I feel so happy helping messed up people because it makes me feel okay for a while then after all the talking, I am back with my kinda low-batt life. I know something's wrong with me. I know, I just don't want to acknowledge it. I don't want to help myself, I guess. Buuuuut, I know, In God's will, everything will be okay. I will be okay.