I never knew what post partum depression until I was the one experiencing it. There are days where I just suddenly burst into tears while taking care of my son, at first I thought it was normal, it's just the hormones taking over my body but 8 months later, things were still the same. I still get random outbursts of tears for no reason and sometimes I just want to detach myself from the world. I was always thinking of suicide but then the thought of leaving my son alone helps put me back on track.

I still haven't healed from post partum depression, I don't even know if you ever heal from it or just learn to manage and live with it. But I know this, as long as my family is there for me, as long as my son loves me and longs for me, and as long as there are people pulling me up, I will never give into it. 

To all mothers out there going through the same thing, you are not alone. We can get through this. We all just have to admit to ourselves that we need help, letting your partner, family, and friends understand what you're going through would help them understand you better. So, talk to someone. Don't keep it all to yourself. You also need to get some rest, Mama.

-Love, Gem