Always thought I could be with this guy forever but I let him go, why? Slightly cheated on me with her ex but he changed. Yes! He did it 100% and I'm so proud of him! Now the real deal is here. I want him to be free from a toxic relationship that I am giving him. Yes he changed but it gave me another trauma again because i was cheated out of fun of others before him. And as a result, again, I overthink too much and get jealous to a lot of things that he's doing before. So i decided to break up with him because i don't want him to settle with a relationship with so much trauma and with no trust from me at all. And right now, i want to go with the self love right now. Its so damn hard, swear. But i need to move forward and if we meet each other again in the near future i want to do the right things for him. But right now, i chose to go with the self love. It will be a long journey but i'll make it through, someday.