Point of View of a Girl:

When  I was a child, I always see myself as a fashion designer. I wanted to design extravagant gowns for Miss Universe candidates. Wedding gowns would be my forte, I even said to my sister that I will create her dream wedding gown and she would feel like a queen when she finally wears it. What funny is I'm not even good at arts especially in drawing. It's funny because every time I would finish a design of a dress, the output is always hideous but still, I told myself, I can be fashion designer. I would just have to work hard to improve my drawing skills.

Years have passed, I left the idea of being a famous designer to childhood. I realized, maybe it was not meant for me because along the way of studying how to draw, I got mentally exhausted. It's not healthy anymore, it made me feel talent-less. I started to measure my worth in the output of my work which is not good for me.  I decided to explore other things so I could see what I'm good at and what really is for me. 

When I was in Grade 6, I started to like cooking and baking. I would help in cooking our meals and I even tried creating recipe for a mug cake that's baked in a microwave. After 3 years of playing in the kitchen, I improved in a lot of aspects of cooking, I'm so proud of myself when I finally learned how to cut garlic and onion properly. I thought, maybe I could pursue culinary arts. But when I finally said my plan to my mother, she immediately opposed my idea of being a chef. According to her, only wealthy people become successful in that field and without the money, you would need extraordinary talent to be a well-paid chef. I didn't get discouraged with my mother's statement. I'm still determined to take culinary arts in college.  

One in my last year in high school, I came with my mom in the hospital to have her checked up because she have Hemorrhoids. When it's my mother's time to enter the doctor's office she said that I should just stay outside and wait for her. I decided to take a walk around the hospital and while I was wandering, I saw some people who I think is a family member of a patient in the hospital. They were crying, begging the doctor to save their loved one. I even heard a pleading scream, that made me tear up. I know that even if the doctor does his best, if it's the patient's time to go, nothing can be done. After the heartfelt scene, I just walked sluggishly on my way to my mother.

After that day, I don't know why but curiousness hits me. I researched more about doctors, what are their roles, working hours, etc. Then I ended up watching medical videos in YouTube and slowly, I somehow liked the work and purpose. I even finished an entire medical k-drama just so I could see more of what a doctor really is. 

I've watched a video about how long does it take to be a doctor in Philippines and I'm kinda shocked on how long it is. Moreover, the difficulty of the graduate school is not a joke. Surprisingly, those didn't bother me too much. A thought entered my mind, maybe, this is the one for me; this is the purpose I've been looking for.  For so long, I have been having a feeling of emptiness, I felt useless. It's like I'm wasting my life, having no purpose that would give me and satisfaction and happiness.  Maybe this is the answer why I decided not to pursue my other interests because medicine will be the one that would give me the fulfillment in my heart. However, when I saw the prices of the tuition fee of some medical school in the Philippines, I somehow feel worried. I'm not sure if we could afford it. But when I told my parents that I'm starting get interested in allied health careers but the tuition fee is bothering me. Happiness filled my heart when they said that if I'm truly sure that it's the career that I want, then they'll find a way to earn money. They assured me that all I need to worry about is studying and graduating. I teared up, I can't express my thankfulness to my parents. I'm so lucky I've been blessed to have such loving and thoughtful parents. Although they want to shoulder all the expenses for my school, I still want to apply for scholarship to ease a part of their burden. 

I would study and work hard not just for my family but most especially for my future patients.