You don't deserve to be alive if you feel life is a chore. The sole purpose of being alive is living. What I mean by living is accepting the day has to offer and live the most out of it. If you feel like everyday is the same do something that will make it different. Life has so much to offer. We are just so scared of what we don't know that is why. That is the reason why we don't want get out of our comfort zone. So try everything you want to try, you only live once