I told myself once, I will buy myself a new and small car once I received my permanency status in San Beda - my former job now.

In life, you should “Expect the Unexpected”. I must have thought of that line before they told me the result. I’m really expecting that I will be rehired because I’m too positive about my performance. I followed their orders, finished their tasks, accepted new responsibilities; I even received awards for my hard work. Unexpectedly, they did not grant me the opportunity to stay.

In the midst of the pandemic, I felt rejected and betrayed; it might be the most devastating occurrence in my life but my world does not end here. Changing plans may be frustrating and stressful. After receiving the result, I honestly wanted to give up. I cried day and night for a few days. I already planned my life in that red and white school, so it’s like I lost everything.

Nevertheless, I believe that these melancholic feelings will eventually shift to something fresh and good. One morning, I woke up feeling better. I started cooking new dishes, I began dancing again, I learned skills I never imagined I have in me and I even found a book that I started to read.  I feel loved and blessed with my family, friends, and people surrounding me who were extending their messages of hope and love for me. I feel secure when my future husband stays with me just to make sure my welfare is good and getting better. I feel relieved upon updating my resume, uploading it to numerous online job websites. I’m astonished by many responses from different companies offering me new opportunities. It is really a good moment, trying to change your perspective specifically about your life’s challenges; however, you will soon realize that it is not a rejection but a redirection. Perhaps, I’m focusing too much on work than the the vast blessings of people and things which life brings me real happiness.

if I will be given a chance to return to that institution, I would not accept it anymore. It is not retaliation but rather a realization that God redirected me to this path which I willingly grab. I may have wasted my three years in that job, but I would not deny the fact that it somehow helped me improve to become better.

Therefore, buying a car as my endeavor may not be successful but I know that with the right amount of perseverance and dedication, nothing is impossible.