Last July 20,2020 my beloved Siamese cat named Yang, died. 
He had Calicivirus diagnosed last May 4. And I wanna celebrate Yang's life with you.

Let me walk you through of the beautiful memories my family and I shared with Yang. :)

He was given to me by my school service driver last 2014 because she had too many cats and cannot afford to take care of the new kittens. Her name was Ate Brenda. Ate Brenda asked me to look at the kittens because according to her, if that kitten walk towards you, he's meant for you. 

Yang was so energetic at that time, He literally walked in front of me and started to nibble my shirt. I took him home on his first month. 
When he got home, I placed him inside a pail 'coz I hadn't bought a cage yet for Him. He loves milk so much and a can of sardines, his cute little meows and purring made us decide to let him sleep on bed for a night.

He was so charming and needy that my parents decided to just let him roam through the house and let him sleep where he wants. 
He was tiny, playful and very sweet. He captured our hearts in an instant. I fed him with milk and some dry cat food, potty trained him in our bathroom. We take him with us when visiting our relatives.  

He was very smart which is remarkable. 

He used to sleep beside me or at my parent’s if he took a bath which was so cute, he hides under the table when my sister starts to turn on the electric kettle. He loves to cuddle and lie on my chest. He's like my sanctuary, my relaxant, he's like a son to me. It's as if I am talking to a grown-up baby every time I talk to him. 

When I proceeded with my internship, I lived in an apartment and only got home on weekends, he would stare at me for an exceptionally long time and would love to cuddle. He spends a lot of time with me when I'm home.

I love talking photos of us and I think, he loved that too. 

On the quarter of year 2019, he started to sneeze a lot and drools most of the time. I just rubbed it off thinking he just caught or flu or something. He did the usuals like going out of the house and visiting his “girlfriend cat” whom we’ve lately came to know had Calicivirus of which he got the disease from. 


----------Feline calicivirus is a highly contagious virus that causes a mild to severe respiratory infection and oral disease in cats. It is especially common in shelters and breeding colonies, and often infects young cats. Most cats recover completely after a calicivirus infection, but rare strains can be especially deadly. The virus poses no threat to humans. (https://www.vet.cornell.edu/departments-centers-and-institutes/baker-institute/our-research/animal-health-articles-and-helpful-links/feline-calicivirus) ----------


Four days after my dad’s birthday, July 16, 2020 , he went home sick, breathing heavily with uneven gait. He went to drink his water and went straight to bed. The next day, he looked a bit fine but I am still concerned with the way he walks so I took him to vet that day. He was confined for 2 days and I went to visit even after the day I just brought him there. The attending nurse told me that his health was improving so I took him home. I was just so excited that I just took his cage and went straight home only to find out that his condition “seemed” to worsen. He was breathing heavily and could not even eat his food without my assistance. I went back to question what happened but the nurses told us to wait for the Vet Doctor because she was out of town. So for a night, to help him ease his breathing, I put some saline solution to the nebulizer and let it create a ventilation for him. 


By July 20,2020 I decided to take him to another Veterinary clinic. The Doctor told me that he’ll be needing to take some blood sample to know the severity of his illness caused by the virus to let us know what he’ll administer to Yang. Yang was given oxygen while the doctor and the other nurses restrained him to move. The Doctor had a hard time getting some blood, they had restrain him more. He’s just looking right into my eyes and cried a loud meow and he was gone. It was so painful too see and hard to accept. 

He's gone 8 days today. I was out of job when he died.  But on the day he died, I received a call from my employer. The next day, I went to work, it was extremely tiring that for a moment, I forgot my sadness about Yang.  I kept myself busy trying to hide the pain and longing for my little one. 

I buried him in a huge pot beside our house and visits him before and after I got off work. I even lit a candle beside his grave and say a little prayer and talking to him imagining he’s just sitting beside me. 

His favorite blanket and pillow still sits on our bed, his plate still in place. He’s still included in my prayers. I miss him a lot. 

And just this morning, I had a dream of him walking in a paradise. running through multitude of cats and looked at me as if telling me that he's okay, that he’s fine and happy. I miss him. I miss him so much it hurts. But I cannot let that pain burry all the love that I and my family experienced with Yang. He was such a blessing none of us expected.

 I am just so sad that he was taken from us at a very young age, wishing more time to be with him, one more morning of play, one more tight hugs and one more cute little kisses from and to him. All that remained was a beautiful memory of my angel.

I had to bear in mind that Yang was so brave because he was able to fight his battle for a long time without a single complaint and he did not give me a hard time taking care of him while he's sick. He did not want me to worry. Now, I had to fight this sadness within and accept our new beginnings. 

 I know in my heart, that those beautiful times we have spent together will always be here, our love for each other like mother and son lingers -Forever. 

And then I came to realize that after a long time, I thought I was useless. Yang made me realize that I am not. He needed me, he loved me, he listened, he trusted me. And I just wanna say that in difficult times, we have someone or somebody to hold on to. Let it be a reminder that you are not alone. You are loved, you are important, and you are treasured. You are needed. You have a role in this world. God will send someone or somebody like Yang in your life. Keep on trusting in Him. He will never fail you.