I was born in a family where I could be a doctor, an accountant, or a failure. These options have taught me to do well in education or else I'll end up failing. It has become a norm in our society that having a great education background can lead us to success and provides stability in life. I was convinced to enroll myself in college, despite being unsure and doubtful on the course I took up. In the beginning, I was inspired and passionate about my early career ahead of me. Time went by, it made me drained and unfocused. I thought in a way of relief to fulfill my father's dream for me; it made me so much overwhelmed to rely on someone's dream than considering making my own. No matter how much I've tried, nothing ever changes that the idea of being here isn't the same as being here to reach and catch for the thing I always wanted to do. I've finished my first year of college unsatisfied, lost, and had no passion for the profession that I took. 

I've committed a suicide mission- to take a break at college and went away from home. I've received a lot of criticism and judgment based on the choice I had made. I've been clouded by the noises from my family's expectations and become a complete failure to them. Despite it, I've finally opened my eyes and considered who I am not what they want for me. Sure thing, they only wanted to see me succeed but in the end, it will never make me happy. 

I started from scratch, no family members had helped or friends that could lead me. I was alone and determined on the journey I started. I look for the things I am passionate about and for something I am good at. I was broke and helpless but it didn't stop me from where I am going. They say "follow your dreams" I reckon, I invested in my passion- in writing and designing. I have no idea where to start unless I roll up my sleeves and start gaining knowledge, put the effort into it, and do the work. I've joined free online training and webinars and met people who had the same interest as I do. I've met my mentors who shaped me to be the best version of myself. They criticize my works and learn from the best. I've sacrificed a lot of time and effort to be excellent in the field I have chosen and my hunger for knowledge and being great is what makes me go. Sometimes, I feel exhausted but nothing can fulfill the things I love doing and I believe it is worth having for. 

For the first time in my life, I have found new things about myself that I never knew. My decision to let myself free has allowed me to grow, to enjoy my life and to produce results that I'm really up to. It is finally the moment I realize to never trade who I am for what the world wants me to be.