NOTE: This is not about the on-going Korean Drama series. 😂

“Do you ever feel like you don't belong anywhere?”
That was one of my tweets yesterday. I knew I was not okay and deep inside I also knew I was pressured by it.

This week was tough. I had a series of anxiety attacks and I chose to keep it from most of my loved ones because I didn’t want them to worry about me. I held everything in. I was too pressured by the thought that sometimes it’s like society expects you to be happy all the time and that sadness means that your faith is weak. I kept on thinking that I wasn’t allowed to feel that way because I’m surrounded by people who love me. It was like I couldn’t have a reason to be unhappy. With all of these wrong thoughts, everything became worse.

After shutting people out, I decided to open up to my friend and what he told me was exactly what I needed to hear, “Do not invalidate what you feel.”
Being perfectly happy all the time is not human. We all have good and bad days.
Life isn’t all rainbows and unicorns.

It sucked to know that I wasn’t okay but admitting it and knowing that “it’s okay not to be okay” was the first step I had to do. Also, to go back to being okay is not overnight. To be honest, I am still not fine and I guess that’s okay. I am slowly acknowledging my feelings and currently taking my time to heal.

I didn’t share this to make people worry or gain sympathy. I just wanted people who feel the same way to know that they’re not alone. It’s okay to be a work-in-progress. We’ll be okay soon.



“The journey of life is filled with ups and downs, which is what shapes us into the people we are. When you’re having a bad day or a good day, remember that people do care about you, you are here for a reason, and the world would not be the same without you.” - You Matter