Life is hard. Life is difficult to deal with but you must learn to fight and not to give up. People are definitely born to feel pain in order to grow and to teach us how to survive.  Most people ask why do we need to feel pain? Do we deserve to get hurt? Don’t we deserve to be happy? Why does the whole world hate me?  Believe me or not, I’m one of those asking these questions.  Why? Because I was bullied by most of my classmates. They used to name call me. I experienced judgements from them and blaming me something that I never did. I was still very young and I didn’t know how to handle it. If I told my parents, my mom will talk to them and then they bully me more. So I decided to stop telling my parents about it. Everytime my parents would ask me how’s school all I have to say is I’m very fine, but deep inside I’m not. 

  Being bullied is one feeling but being betrayed is another. It is indeed more painful when my friends betrayed me. The moment my friends turned their back at me when I badly needed them. They say friends will help you  to get up when you are down. Friends are always there for you when you need them. But unfortunately, they left me hanging. And that moment I know the difference finally between having friends and true friends. Because friends can be your friend for a meantime, but true friends will be your friend forever and will always stay by your side when your day is tough. I don’t know to whom I can run to express my feelings. I was devastated. I was broken. I feel so hopeless, empty and lonely.I feel like I was living in a blackhole. I started not to trust people and build a wall and close the door for new people not to enter in my life because I don’t want to get hurt again. I need to protect myself to the people who have bad intentions to befriend me. 

   They say sharing your feelings will lead to the release of some anxiety. This can also lead to better relationships with people. If you don’t speak to anyone, keeping things bottled within you can be dangerous and can cause depression. But, there are different ways to express our feelings and as for me, I express my feelings through writing in my diary. I don’t share my problems to someone because I always have a hard time to express. But even if I’m just writing it I always feel better. My diary became my companion and a shoulder to cry on. Everything that I’ve been through, I wrote it there because I want something to remind me of my past . No matter how bad my experiences, I will always look back because I always believe that I can use them to become better someday. 

   There are times that I wanted to end my life because I didn’t want to stay in this world anymore. I hated this world so much. But believe me or not, God always gave me reasons not to give up and continue to live. He let me hear stories from people who also exprienced the same thing and became successful. They chose to continue to live and dream than to stop dreaming. That inspired me more and motivated me. I want to know what I will become in the future. I want to experience more in this world. I want to see how far I go in this life. So I won’t stop on dreaming because of the people who hurt me but I will let them be my inspiration in reaching my dreams. Taking your own life will never be a solution to your problems. Always think that there are still people who truly loves you.  
   
   Life will give you a million reasons to give up, breakdown and cry however show life that you have a billion reasons to hold on and smile. No matter how bad it is always remember that the bad days you’ve been through had a purpose. You have a few rough days to fight to make the best of your life. And lastly, always remember that no matter how big the wall you build to refrain people to enter in your life someone can destroy it. Believe me because someone already destroyed the wall that I built and I’m so lucky to have that person in my life. That person always makes me feel that I am not alone in this world.