I'm such a big dreamer when it comes to self growth and prosperity. I have been exerting efforts to achieve them already. So, probably five years from now, I will:

1. Be able to speak confidently. I always tend to have second thoughts: "What if I hurt someone?", "What if I lose them because of my words?", "What if they won't accept it?", "What if it won't make things better?", etc. It is because, I always choose to hurt, silence, dirt, and ruin my face than making others go though those situations, especially to my loved ones--I'm such warm-hearted. However, I want to change it, not totally because I still need to care, but I want to give myself relief when I need to express things.

2. Be able to forgive myself. It's always hard to escape the past, I still carry a part of it everyday. It has been creeping me out at night and I just see myself watering my pillows, again. Therefore, I want to forgive "me"-- the girl who didn't know I would regret things before.  

3. Settle in my passion. I have been teaching for almost 3 years. I do like this profession, because I entered it in the first place though. However, I always get unmotivated, tired, and unhappy. I thought  when I graduated college, "this is finally it", but it turned out a " not yet". I thought I would be happy, but I'm not. I thought I would settle for it, but I'm still looking...searching... for "What I want to be".

4. Have a healthier relationship with my family, friends, and with my partner. This quarantine has been an eye-opener for all the things I didn't appreciate before. Like, the smell of morning coffees with my parents, the laughter in simple jokes, my parent's cuddles, those sunsets that we all wait to see, and the relief that they're or we're healthy and safe. I have realized that I'd love to spend more of these with them.

5. Have a more intimate bond with the Almighty. I've been doubting my efforts because they are not enough and I know can do more to know, to worship, to praise, and to get closer to Him. I had been a great sinner. I want to rectify them all. I want to build a deeper relationship with Him. 

Fingers crossed. May all of these to come true. Praying for yours, too. :) 

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